A warlock's ranting.

Putting my druid and warlock away for now. The last raid leader left, as rumored. It was a last straw deal. They sucked all the fun out of my 70's, so if you see me on them, please don't hold me there with chatter. I likely just got on to get money or mats. Maybe to farm the mats/money. But I don't want a guild. I don't want to run an instance. I don't want to talk on them. I just want to put them away for now, so I don't delete them.

I will be on my paladin or hunter if I am on. Maybe the priest or warrior. Likely the paladin.

We'll... never... get out of Kara. Ever. We just set ourselves back again...

We had a core crew. Took them in consistently, killed things.
We went from 3-4 nights of raiding to 2.
Then we decided to split the core crew into 2 halves, and pulled in random guildmates to give them the experience. Thing is we split this up with the same raid ID, over 2 nights. Core team A + people on night one, Core Team B + people on night 2.
Tonight? We're taking 2 teams in for the first time. So now it will be Core Team A + people and Core Team B + people on both nights.

We only JUST got the Shade down. (I was out of state, so I didn't even get to see it. :/) Once. Not even multiple times.

Never. Getting. Out. Of. Kara.

/headdesk

Hadn't whined out loud in a little while...so I had to do it. Sorry. :(

My tree finally hit 60. :D

The raid frustrations are better. Not perfect, but I am likely just too darned picky. It did get to a BAD, then got better.

Basically I was left out again, so I called them on it. The answer their officer gave me was "find another raid group". I took this to one of the raid leaders the next day and expressed my concerns. They had no idea all the crap and unhappiness was going on, so were glad I brought it to them.

Things have gotten better since then. <3 our new druid in particular. They are poking at me to continue leveling my resto druid, though. I've always only raided on ONE character. Never wanted to raid with 2+, so I'm not too keen on their want to adopt my doodad.

I actually went out on what I suppose could be called a date... dinner and coffee after. Sat and talked. He's nice. Kept me laughing. I wouldn't mind seeing him again.

I'm outta town for Memorial weekend. Going to visit a friend. I've never been to California, so this should be fun. :)

Oh... and I'm being prodded to play my Hordeling more... but the thought of leveling to 70 again makes me want to cry. :(

Someone took Zarly out for Pizza last week. :D

So yeah - I'm back to my normal, boring routine. Work and WoW. And work has chosen to get even worse. *sigh*

Oh, and because I haven't said it lately - Boom = awesome! :D

The post on the public forums, about him, Z and Manaforge Ara? (http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=86714693&postId=867691792&sid=1#43) Well... he mentions a cat that he got Z for a present? I opened my mail... and there's a Bombay for Z from Boom. :)

So I turned around and made him a shirt, and got it Hordeside to coordinate with his cheesy St. Patita's day voice mail. :) (http://forums.worldofwarcraft.com/thread.html?topicId=85659900&postId=852829709&sid=1#12)

/cheer Boom

So, my lame as is finally keyed to Kara. My hex has been lifted! After what? A month+ of disconnects, bugs, moron PUGs, and just plain crappy luck, I am FINALLY keyed to Karazhan.

Valere helped me get it done, and were apparently impressed with me in there. Though I have no idea why. I was anxiety filled going in, because I have never experienced that much failure in one instance. *grumbles*
Impressed enough that they are poking at people to try to get me to join them. (By people, I mean friends and ex-raidmates that are currently in the guild.)

I hate guild hopping. I'd rather be unguilded than hopping about. :/ But TGK doesn't seem to have any drive at all. I like them, and I have fun with them. But I don't see things going ANYWHERE, and I miss raiding. :( Valere will take me without their guild tag currently, but the pressure I am getting to join them is huge.


Soon - my anti-computer week+ hits! My company will be here Wednesday afternoon and I will be mostly offline till about the 17th. :D

So I will likely be scarce this week as well. Too much happening and not enough people to get it all done. :(

/facepalm

Life will likely return to normal-ish around April 20th.

I went to heroic Slave Pens last night. I was a little pissed, because I got ditched with the group. I knew the tank, but the others were unknown to me.

ANYWAY, those naga hurt. 6000-7700 on cloth non-crit. Immune to a lot of what I have to offer to keep them under control. I ended up fearing, seducing (rarely - most everything was immune), or DoT kiting.

I also ended up stripped down to my tabard to test which ones were immune to which CC. (We hadn't been here before, and the ones that had been here, hadn't been with a warlock.)

It was stupidly long, but a lot of fun in spite of the many many deaths. I also was the last one standing on Quag. We one shotted him, but only because I DoTed him up and ran like a girl. :P They were yelling at me to put more DoTs on him... problem is, I was keeping my instant casts on him - if I had stopped to cast the ones with a cast time like they wanted me to, he surely would have eaten through my last few HP's. :/ But, we beat him, and the jerk didn't drop the trinket I wanted. :( But the others got some gear, so it wasn't a total loss. :)


Out of game, I'm running around like a mad woman trying to get my apartment ready for company. I got into a BAD habit of not unpacking when I move. I was military growing up. There was no point in unpacking because you were just going to move in a year anyway. Well, that habit is with me today, and I looked at my apartment to realize it was nothing but boxes, even though I have been there nearly 2 years. :/
So here I am unpacking, wondering "Why did I keep this in the last move??". *rolls eyes*

We've been short-staffed at work the last two weeks and the stress is eating at me.

So yeah - April 5th till about April 16th, I won't be around much if at all. Yay for company! :D

So... as miserable as I was with things Alliance side, I opted to roll up a Horde warlock. *shrug* We'll see if she gets anywhere. I hate leveling baby toons. She got to 20 this weekend, though, which isn't too bad considering most of my baby toons take MUCH longer to level than that.

I did break my "can't finish a damn run" streak, though. Joined a friend's guild (These are people I was guilded with pre-RS too) after he booted that whore's final alt out, and we completed two runs. I didn't get anything I needed to done, but it was nice to actually complete something.

Having fun with the little spinning stick warlock so far. We'll see how far she gets. My highest Horde character ever is only 41.

Too many BAD pugs + a run where the males of the group trashed on me cause I was female, and when I trashed back they didn't like it and took their ball and went home = break time for Zarly!

Not having any fun right now, because I haven't completed a run since...the Arc runs with Bury and friends. So I'm going to take a break for a bit.

Knowing me it will only be a few nights, then I will be back and gritting my teeth at PUGs again.

Have fun in Outlands/Azeroth!

I am. Very picky. Especially about guilds. Looking at Z's history, I think she's got 5? and I am hesitant to add guild #6 on there...but I may have to in order to get ANYTHING done. *sigh*

Deaths Playground when she was little, moved to sign a friend's charter for Unholy Seraphim (I think that was the name). Leveled up unguilded, because those friends never logged into the guild, so I may as well have been guildless.
Joined The Fallen Ancients after MUCH poking and prodding from a member there. Wasn't happy at ALL there. Moved to Royal Steel, which I loved. Drama happened. Was with LNR in Naxx and House Stalwart kept sending me invites, to which I finally just clicked accept. They were just a name over the head, not really a "get together and go do things" group, which I wasn't ever really able to make a space for myself in anyway. (Lots of warlocks, so there really wasn't any need for a 2nd in any group.)

Now I'm unguilded again. It's a little lonely, and VERY frustrating when trying to get groups.

2 guilds have stated I have a home if I want it, but I'm really very unsure about both. The first is former FFW members, and I only really know two of their members. I adore those two, but that's a whole lot of unknown.
The second I know very little about. Some members of my former raid group are there, and while I like those guys a lot, there's a member of the warlock roster that I think is a total moron. And if I had to run another instance with her, I think I might scream. She does EVERYTHING wrong, and is a perfect example of what NOT to do in any given situation.

I'm sure people think that about me, though. *shrug*

I want a group of competent people. People that come in and do their job, and do it well. I hate people that come in half-assed and ruin a run for 4, 9, 19, or 39 other people. You're there to be part of the team. Do your job, or get out.
And this is probably why I am always hunting... I'm too damn picky. :/


My in-game highlight this weekend was trying to help this group down Durn the Hungerer in Nagrand. I was bored snagging motes, and saw them going at it. It was a couple of priests, a paladin, a hunter, a mage, and a druid as best I could tell. I decided to chip in. On one attempt, the paladin-tank pulled me into group to bless me with salvation and told me to take it easy. The problem with this is, I *was* taking it easy... to the point I took off my damage gear and put on my stamina gear. :P
They did finally get him down though, and there was much rejoicing!

Z got her Keeper and Auchindoun keys.

Helping a friend farm primals for his Primal Mights. A coupla air, mana and fire, and he has all he needs.

Then I can get back to suffering PUGs in hopes of getting my last few key fragments and maybe some rep.

Woo-freaking-hoo? :P

When I was in RS, there was a joke that ran about due to a potential fund raiser that was discussed. Someone wanted to do Cafepress items to gain some funds. Cafepress has the option to make thongs. One of the boys said he'd buy Zarly a thong...and it was a running joke from there. :P

ANYWAY, one of the boys had mentioned a Baron Thong Run. At the time, my 'thong' outfit offered piddly stats and nearly no damage. Now I'm 70, and I went back to do that quest in Hellfire that gives the 'pants' that my poor priestess had been romping about in. This outfit has reasonable stats that I wouldn't fear heading in with.

Yeah, it's dumb, but I don't care. :P He's decided that will be his level 70 celebration. We're gonna grab some drinks, the thong, and go cavorting through Strath. :P

( Cut for a picture of Z in the thong-outfit-thing, casting Fel Armor )

Oh... and he apologized for being a prick.

So I had 2 weeks off, and what did I do? Busted my ass to TRY to get caught up to someone who I very much wanted to quest with... and the jerkoff never once gave me a moment to breathe.
Obviously, I didn't catch up to him, and ended up soloing all the way to 70.

Now he's being a dick because of my gear. This is what he said to me this weekend, when he passed me on his way to SL, "You know, when I am not mad about you having the things that I want, I remember that I really miss you."

I have no CLUE what he's on about though. My gear is okay, but it's not AMAZING. *shrug* I have over 750+dam in my regular gear. I haven't bothered to enchant yet, because I have no raid group or any real REASON to do so. Who cares what I grind motes and rep in? I'm sure the mana wraiths are super impressed that I have some Oblivion, or that I crafted those damn shoulders... or that I have a sword that's almost as big as I am. :P

So yeah. I have one heroic key - Coilfang/Cen Exp. 1400 rep from Keepers key. Got my Shattered Halls key. I can't seem to find any decent groups to get the two parts I need for the Karazhan key or the bits I need for the Arcatraz key. Honored with all the major reputations, just have to grind out Revered statuses.

Stuck at various group quests too. A biggie being - The Cipher of Damnation.

Back to work today... I'm cranky. The day started with a flat tire. :(

I finally got sick of the jerks in Hellfire enough to just leave. I'm finding Zangarmarsh and Terokkar much less annoying as far as people go, so far. I'm sure that will change.

I've been to the Blood Furnace 3-4 times now. It's short and sweet. To the point. MUCH more fun than Ramparts. I have only been to Ramparts once. I wasn't impressed.

The hardest part about wanting to catch up with one group of people I like to play with... is that the other group I enjoy playing with are at my level or lower. (62 as of this post)

People have come out of the woodwork and started talking to me again. It is very weird. One of my groups in BF last night, was a group I haven't spoken to in a long while. I'm really not sure why they picked me...maybe I was the lowest level warlock they knew? *shrug*
Many ex-guildies looking me up as well. From both RS and FA... and old random PUG connections.

I keep slowing up to socialize... or answer that 30th tell when all I want to do is quest and grind and get caught up. I have 2 other 60's that I can take sloooow. I just want this one up up and away! But the new fishing calls... and the desire to see/do dungeons at their level at least once while I can take in the scenery. (My other 60's are a warrior and a priest.)

I'm tired... I haven't slept much since I installed and the after-work grind started... I may sleep tonight. I'm too old for this crap. :P

The star-struck:
I was in the Marsh, questing, when someone buffed me. I was too busy to /thank, so I tossed a /w to them when I was out of combat. A simple "Thank you!". I get a tell back, "Wow, Zarly!". I giggled, and find it weird that people 'recognize' me. Though, I know how it is. I ran into Bury in Shattrath and was gleeful. I remember my first run-ins with Grinnar, Boven, Mydroch, Kalea, and Meadowglen, too. My few raids with Sariias. And when I got to meet Boom! People that I know of, but don't actually know, and for whatever reason it tickles me when I get to 'meet' them. :D
I would imagine each and every one of them thought I was a total n00b, too. *grin* But that's okay. I am a total n00b sometimes. :P

Last night, I had gotten into a HUGE fight with my father about the CE. After making me wait forever for it... he had it delivered to his house. 1-2 hours away, depending on traffic. I went and bought a regular copy, borrowed a friend's key with the understanding that when I get my copy, I will send it to them.

Why was I waiting on him... for nearly a freaking week? Because I didn't know he chose the slowest vendor to get it, nor the slowest shipping. In retrospect I should never leave anything that is important to me up to someone else. When I found out he did this, I was going to buy a regular version the night of release. I had the store I was going to wait at all picked out. My winter coat out, because of the freezing rain. Everything. Then I learned that if you went regular, you could NOT to use your CE key. Well... damn. Getting a CE where I live would require killing someone. So I thought I would just try patience.
After watching it sit less than 5 hours away for over 3 days...I got a delivery notification...to HIS house, some 2 hours away with rush hour traffic.
He bought this for me to make up for forgetting my birthday not once, but TWICE in a row. He asked me what I wanted, and I figured I would tell him what I honestly, truly wanted. That was back in Oct. 2006.

So fast forward to TBC installed:

When I got in game... I had over a dozen tells exclaiming about my having the expansion...then another dozen insisting I come on X run. I just wanted to look around. :(

I went to the Ramparts - I was not impressed. The rest of the stuff...quests and the like, are neat though. The mobs. :) I wanted to head on to Shattrath, just to see it, and ended up tagging along with a friend who was 2 levels above my lowly 60. I had fun, though. He knew where things were, and I was a total n00b.

Z got to 6.5 bars from 61 before the server shut down. *sigh* Which left me 2 hours to sleep for work. *yawn*

Oh yeah... and Sunday night, Z finally got the cute little Felheart Horns. She had the Neme Skullcap forever.

Now to try to catch up to everyone I know. :/ Thank goodness I have 2 weeks and 3 weekends off starting this weekend. I'm gonna rush Z to 70 to the best of my abilities without going mad. Then take my time with my other 60's.

We were in MC. We got locked up, and then people were killed because they were stuck in wide open spaces. We had only just started, so it wasn't so bad.
We had to log inside the instance, because there was no world to zone out to.

When the world came back, 2 of the priests were locked. The decision was made to join their instance. One stated they never run with another group, and the other stated that they haven't been in MC for 4 months.

Regardless, as we wandered in, we learned that every boss in the instance was dead. Mind Vision, stealthy people, Eyes of Kilrogg... and we had a wasted evening.

What annoys me most about all of this... was the finger pointing. :( If we're "just here to have fun", which is what I was told when I asked if they needed to bring in someone who needed the gear, why start placing blame? Where's the fun in that?

*Tiny drawings of hearts, stars, swirls and butterflies speckle the top of the page, The handwriting starts out neat and curly. Almost delicate. But as the page goes on the handwriting gets sloppier, heavier and more rigid*

Everytime we cross paths, it's sweet at first. The flirting, the witty commentary. Then something goes wrong, and the verbal sparring turns to emotional warfare. Always ending with one of us walking away angry.

I have never understood the man. That much is clear. When we first met, I was drunk...defeated by a former lover and his present whore. We both spoke ill of love. I parted feeling an odd attraction to him, in spite of the strangeness of his peers.

Meetings after, we share a moment and he speaks of love for me. I am foolish and want to believe him. I ask him about his previous angry words toward this emotion, and he shuts me down. Tells me to sleep. I obey. He left while I slept, after promising to watch over me.

He takes me to a home he occupied in a previous chapter of his life. We speak of our affections for one another, and he notifies me that he will not be 'entangled'... He would rather have his cake and eat it too.
*a scribble of a tiered cake with flowers...and a large carving knife buried into it*

Aez and Pip speak with me...they tell me I should use him in the manner he is using me. I am not certain I am capable. I am not certain he would care. Hell... using him might make me more attractive to him. I do not think I want that.

Part of me wants him to hurt. That would be the insanity creeping in... Mother wasn't strong enough to hold it at bay, and the more damage I take emotionally...the less able I am to combat it. Jhuuthun knows I am weak. He plants seeds of destruction and revenge in my thoughts.....................................

*the ink trails off the page, and when the text resumes the flowery, dainty handwriting has returned*

I don't know why I love him....but I need to work on giving him up.

*a carefully drawn comical heart with a neat break down the center appears to close this entry*

((OOC note - I have this actually written up/drawn, just haven't taken the time to get my scanner attached to the new computer.))

After being mostly MIA for the last few months, my favorite person in all of Azeroth logs in...and has nothing to say to me. Not a hello nor a goodbye. He logs in again, a bit later, and I ask about it. He doesn't really have anything to offer me, and logs again with no goodbye.
If I did something to inspire this behavior, I wish he would tell me. That was my heart breaking for Christmas.


I logged in, and an ex-guildy who doesn't talk to me much whispers "I wonder if anyone would even notice if I got into a horrible car accident and died."
To which I responded with a profound "..." :P
He replied, "You wanna find out?"
I responded, "No."
He states, "Don't worry about it. I always get like this around the holidays."
I replied, because I was already upset over family, friends, and boys - "What kind of monster do you think I am that I would want to find out such a gruesome thing?!"
He doesn't reply, and logs much later in the night.


I am now exalted with The Argent Dawn. Not that it matters much. A friend came out to keep me company and joined me on the Cauldron grind. May I just say that 2 warlocks working together is a little scary. He's affliction, I'm presently demon.
An undead rogue decided to try to drive us away from GW cauldron by dropping 11 mobs onto us. We survive this. So he tries again. We counted 18 corpses. None of which were ours. This was close though. Had there been more, I'm not certain we would have survived.


Not an impressive feat, but with my current spec, I can solo the first room in Scholomance. Though, the double guards at the gate chew through my Felguard before they are both dead and I need a second one.